Unmotivated

To those who knows me personally, they will say I am a happy person. I lough a lot. I like to be around friends and family. I talk a lot. I am very energetic & motivated. 

But tak kan hari-hari kita gitu kan. Ada hari-hari kita rasa down & unmotivated jugak. Like today. That is exactly what I felt this morning. Actually dah few weeks kot I rasa macam ni. 

Apa rasa dia? Rasa penat. T.I.R.E.D of everything. 

Tak baik kan cakap gini. But I accept it. I am only human. So tak apa lah...sometimes we just have to let it be. Takkan la kita nak happy je 24/7 kan. Tu robot kot.

Kenapa penat?

Sebab rasanya semua benda nak kena buat. Tak boleh ke nak jadi malas haaa?

Nak kena kurus, nak kena pinggang kecik, senyum nak kena manis. Bau nak kena wangi. Dapur mesti berasap rajin masak. Nak kena rajin basuh pinggan, cuci kain baju, lipat kain, kemas rumah. Muka nak kena cantik licin. Kerja nak kena rajin tak boleh main internet. Nak kena rajin jemput anak, hantar anak. Ajar anak ulangkaji, membaca, mengeja, mengira, homeworks, bagi idea anak nak buat lukisan. Rajin google bahan-bahan untuk anak suka belajar.

Nak kena jogging kena bangun pagi. balik kena pergi gym 3 kali seminggu at least. Nak kena make up cantik-cantik. Nak kena pakai baju cantik-cantik. Tudung kena iron pakai shawl belit-belit..huuuuuuu

I did everything....but bila measurement day... berat increase 2kg. Yes, I've been avoiding measument day since last August. But ini dah November...so nak tak nak kena naik atas scale tu jugak. I knew..memang berat naik fat percentage naik. I dah tau dah...tapi sedih jugak. heheh (eh..tergelak pulak, tadi kata sedih)

Takde sesiapa yang bersalah. Saya sendiri yang buat diri sendiri jadik gini. Takpelah. I am sedih. Tapi tadi boss belanja makan kat Seksyen 15 Shah Alam makan ikan patin sedapnyeeee...nasib baik pergi dengan boss malu pulak nak makan kepala ikan tu kan. Hehehe...see..lepas makan jadi happy. Tulaaahhhh food always buat saya happy. Tapi lepas tu pasal food jugaklah yang buat saya sedih. Empphhhhh...

Tak pe laaahhh....I will start again. 

This is November. I've started actually last Sunday 2nd November. I will jot in my calendar so that I can monitor my work out. And if possible my calorie intake.

I did this before....so for sure I can do this again!! Yes I can!!!