aku baru je tengking satu mamat bodoh yg mmg dah lama carik pasal ngan aku. tapi kenapa aku still rasa tak puas? selama ni i don't know how to be bitchy. ramai org kata keje mcm aku ni mmg boleh jadik bitchy. u know...marah org sana sini. but i didn't have the guts to do it. it's just not me. mmg aku akan membebel ke ngadu ke pasal aku tak puas hati to my loved ones; i.e: hubs, sisters, besties. then they will menyokong2 aku ke..api-apikan ke..sesama ckp org yg aku tak puas hati tu bodoh ke... that kind of thing. which usually makes me feel better.
but this time...this time i decided to be bitchy. aku tengking balik. i suppose to be satisfied don't i? tapi kenapa aku rasa tak puas jugak. paham tak what i mean? slalu kalau org marah or tengking kita pasal keje pastu kita tak reti nak jawab apa so kita diam je . but we wish that we can punch them in their head or yell back at them but we didn't have the guts to do it.
despite keeping my cool as usual and people still take advantage of my kindness (cheewaahhh) i thought i'll feel better after i yelled back and slammed down the phone just now. but i'm not.
maybe after this i just keep doing my old routine which is membebel about merepek things to 2-3 pairs of ears that have been very loyal to hear it kan...hopefully kengkawan & my other half setia mendengarnye...
don't let anger leads you - i suppose
p/s: ibu ayah nak berangkat ke Mekah malam ini. tolong doakan ibu ayah sehat sentiasa, selamat pergi & balik serta dapat menunaikan Haji dgn sempurna hendaknya.
p/s/s: mk ade buat list yg panjang utk mintak ibu doakan kat sana nanti hehe